Self-esteem and Fitting in

Sorry for not blogging in a while, I had to work a lot and focus on finishing school- oh yeah, I graduated high school, so that's pretty cool. 

In this entry I wanted to talk about self-esteem and fitting in. I know it's something I've really struggled with and I'm sure 95% of teens have. I mean for a lot of us, the self esteem issues come from trying to fit in. 

Like I said in a previous entry, when I went into highschool, I was only going with two close friends. It was hard when everyone else was showing up with a group of 5-6 friends. I went to a uniform school, but I remember on the days we could dress down, my grade 9 self would spend the night before figuring out a half decent outfit to wear. Then when I got to school I would constantly feel like I should've wore something different because I "didn't fit in". This continued till about grade 11, I still worried so much of what people thought of me. Luckily at the end of grade 11, I stopped caring, a very smart person told me I needed to smarten up; that I shouldn't care what people think of me by the way I dress. Now I feel confident in whatever I choose to wear- let me tell you, some of it's a tad crazy haha. I have all different styles and I'm happy with them.

However, in my opinion, makeup is a different story. A lot of my friends started wearing makeup while we were still in elementary school, I find that super young, only because wearing makeup can ruin your skin and make you age so much faster. (I sound like a mom haha) Honestly though, save your beautiful skin and hold out, because as cheesy as it sounds, you ARE beautiful without it. To my high school girl readers, if you wear makeup, no hate because I do too. I used to never leave the house without makeup on because some stupid boy told me I looked "like death" ,whatever that looks like. I still don't like leaving the house without makeup on, but I can do it and feel okay about it. 

The last topic I wanted to touch on is hair. Girls have this emotional attachment to their hair. I don't know why, but short hair seems scary. My mom said something to me the other day about how every girl pretty much looks the same, we all have the same length hair and it's either red, brown, blonde or black; I mean it's true. Recently, one of my close friends cut all her hair off, and you know what, she rocks short hair.( s/o to Sammie) It actually kind of pushed me towards cutting my hair short- something I never thought i'd say. The one thing holding me back from actually rolling through with it, was the thought of people judging me. Self esteem drop, I sat in my room and thought, " will people think I look dumb", "do guys even like girls with short hair?" - what the hell Natalie. I have an appointment to cut my hair to my shoulders this week, I'm going to follow through with it, and I actually feel really good about it. I mean it's definitely going to be an adjustment but I'm already excited for it.

So to end things off, here is my advice to all of you. WEAR WHAT YOU WANT! WEAR MAKEUP-OR DONT who cares! If you feel like you want to cut your hair or do something different DO IT! All these things may be hard at first, but once you do it- you'll realize nobody else's opinion matters, because YOU like it and that's the only opinion that matters. 

Thanks again for reading my corny crazy blog! 

    Natalie xoxo