I wanted to talk about someone who I love so so much, any guesses? Well if you guessed my mom, you were right ! My mom is absolutely amazing, and I don't give her enough credit for everything she does for me.
I was reading a letter my mom wrote me when I was finishing high school. As this letter is something very close to my heart- I can share this, there was lots of love shed through that 4 page letter- and one thing I will always shed a tear too, is hearing my mom say she loves me and she's so proud of me.
Growing up with anxiety, I always feared that I was unloved or unwanted by my parents. Like why couldn't they just have an easy child with no issues whatsoever? Now that I'm older I understand that my parents couldn't deal with a boring child, they'd lose their minds. Our family needs chaos, and that chaos just happened to be named Natalie.
If we throw it back to about 7 years ago and you asked me about my relationship with my mom, I would've said, "what relationship"? Only because I was a stupid teenager and thought moms didn't know anything. Now at 19 if someone asked me about my relationship with my mom, I'd say, "Its great, my mom is my role model". Everything is so different now, I take walks with my mom just to tell her everything that's going on in my life, and I don't really hold anything back lol. She puts her advice in when necessary and I actually listen to it hahaha. Now I know if I was every in a risky situation or I desperately needed her, she would do anything to make sure I was safe.
She's the kind of person who can either give you a bunch of anxiety ( just by the fact she brings up crazy situations sometimes) or take all the anxiety away. I see my mom in me, more and more everyday. Glad I have patches of her smart-ass comments, beyond cool eyes ( sorry dad), and amazing personality. There's nobody else I would want to have for MY mom, cause she's pretty damn amazing.
I LOVE YOU MOMMA <3- Natalie
